"No," he says, perhaps too quickly at the mention of Rexxentrum. He does know that name, and he will not go back there until he is ready. "Somewhere else," he adds, more subdued.
He takes whatever other spell books and pouches he can find, slipping them into the pack he'd been using as his own. Asra considers the bodies at the suggestion they burn them and he nods. That is the better decision, it will mask the slaughter for what it is, at least to untrained eyes. This man says we, and it makes Asra wonder if they are to be accomplices in this.
When he is certain there is nothing of value left, save the other pendants (he only needs one, after all), he murmurs the arcane word to cast a firebolt: first into the dying fire to make it flare to life, then again at one of the bodies.
Bren considers, for a moment, doing nothing. He has been keeping what remains of his meager arcane abilities to himself as much as possible, knowing that his pursuers will be looking for a man with such talents. He doesn't especially want this man, whoever he is, to know more about him than he needs to reveal. Still, he crooks his fingers, whispers a word, and directs two firebolts to the remaining corpses. The smell nauseates him.
"Druvenlode, then," he says simply, gruffly, when all three bodies are burning. He turns away. He didn't kill them, but he can't watch. "A day south. It is a decently sized mining city. There are several casinos and gambling houses, so outsiders are not uncommon."
This man is clearly dangerous. There is a reason he reacted so quickly to the mention of Rexxentrum. He doesn't know his connection to the volstrucker, to Ikithon. But that is precisely why he must take this risk. He has to find out. Hunching his shoulders and slipping his hands into his pockets, Bren glances at the elf again sidelong. It is foolish to make this offer even tacitly, but he does. "That is where I am going."
"Druvenlode," he repeats, trying to place it on the map he's seen. He can't, but that could have everything to do with being addled. Asra slips on the pendant he took and tucks it beneath his clothes, effectively hiding it. He shoulders his pack and looks to his nameless companion.
"Then that is where I will go."
Before they get far from the campsite, Asra attempts to use prestidigitation to get the blood off of his hands. His clothes are dark enough that the stains are difficult to discern. He also pulls his cowl hood up, hiding his pointed ears. Whether or not elves are common doesn't matter. He doesn't need to draw further attention to himself when it's clear that they both wish to go unnoticed. He is a quiet enough companion as they walk, either lost in thought or simply content not to break the silence.
As they depart, he tries not to regret his commitment to this course. At least the other man isn't talkative. Bren doesn't offer a name, and neither does the stranger. They walk southward in silence for some time, and Bren is grateful that the moons are bright enough overheard for his human eyes to see by. Catha bathes the low hills and wide fields in silver, and Ruidus emits its deep red aura, a glow some find ominous.
Still, it is hard to be sure. The light is strange, and the elf's hood is pulled up, and Bren's memory was not so reliable, while he was in Vergesson. Apparently it wasn't so reliable before then either, he reminds himself bitterly. He has forgotten much, and of what he does remember from the last eleven years, it is hard to know what is real. But the more glances he steals, the more he thinks he has seen this man before. In Vergesson--it must have been. If it was before that, he would recall it better.
Was he also abandoned in that place by Trent Ikithon, a failure meant to be forgotten? Is he a fugitive, too?
The glow of the red moon only puts him in mind of how the volstruckers looked when he finished with them. His mind drifts back to those moments, rushed and efficient, but also brutal. He cannot remember their names, or if they ever shared them with him.
As the silence builds between them, Asra becomes aware that the man he is traveling with is looking at him. Not staring, more cautious than that. Sneaking glances. Does he know something? Recognize something? It's night, they are unlikely to run into others. Asra pushes his hood back in what seems like an absent gesture, revealing himself again. His pale skin reflects the tint of the moon and there are a few flecks of blood on his neck that he has not cleaned away. He pulls his long hair back, securing it in a knot at the back of his head for now. He dislikes having it hanging loose, all he can think is that it would be too easy to grab or get caught somewhere.
"Is there somewhere I can bathe in this place we're going?" he asks at last. Maybe that would help his state of mind.
If the other man has noticed the way he has been looking at him, he doesn't seem to mind. After a little longer, he takes his hood down again--perhaps to invite his glance, perhaps just to pull his hair back. Either way, Bren gets a better look at him. This only makes him more certain. He has seen this man before. It must have been years ago (though time also escaped him in that place), but he still looks just the same, as an elf would. He can't recall the circumstances, but his handsome features in that pale face, the dark hair--he remembers.
At least he thinks he does.
"I have only been there in passing before, but I imagine you will have your pick of bathhouses with the coin we have now," he answers, taking the excuse of conversation to look more openly at his strange, still lightly blood-splattered, new companion. "I will be finding a cheap inn, myself."
The question on the tip of his tongue feels pathetic and Asra bites it back. He nods in answer, carrying that silence for another few steps before the question, treacherous, breaks free.
"Let me stay with you." It's worse than a question: it's a plea. The act of asking leaves him exposed and the warning crawls up his back. He does not need companionship. But you want it, a softer voice whispers. One that is right in ways he doesn't want to admit. "A cheap inn is more so splitting it."
Maybe that isn't reason enough, but it is reasonable. The coin both of them have walked away with will go further if they share that expense, small though it is. This man looks at him with recognition and Asra wants to know why. He must know. And he doesn't think it is a discussion that can or would happen in a public bath.
Bren is more than a little startled by the stranger's desperate insistence, this entreaty to stay together. Like a drowning man grasping at anything he can to try to break the surface. He doesn't know where he is, and perhaps he is terrified of being left alone in a strange land. Who wouldn't be?
Why was he at Vergesson? He needs to know.
"Okay," Bren agrees quietly, after a beat or two of silent thought. "You are clearly far from home. I have no particular destination, but you are welcome to remain with me until you decide where you want to go." Then, a careful probe: "I will need something to call you, though."
A handful of names pass through his mind, though none of them are his. He has his name. Sometimes it feels like that is the last thing he has. He knows that it is connected to something, to a person and a place that existed before the red haze of violence and savagery.
"Asra," he answers. "That is my name."
It's an affirmation as much as an answer. He will take back who he is, and this is the first step. Well... perhaps murdering the volstruckers was the first step. But even that felt in service to the dark urges inside him. He cannot undo it now.
Asra. He sounds more certain of that than anything he's said yet. Bren almost regrets giving him a false name in return.
"Jakob VΓΆlkner," he lies smoothly, and offers his hand. Like the rest of him, it's dirty, and also flecked with blood from divesting the volstrucker of their valuables. Dingy bandages loop around his thumb and disappear up the sleeve of his tattered coat. "I will not pretend to know what has happened to you, Asra, but I am grateful that you did not mind my snooping."
He takes the name at face value - it doesn't matter if it's real or not, does it? He accepts the dirty hand, his own still stained despite the best attempts of prestidigitation. Asra's clothes are of good quality, though clearly he's been traveling in them for a little while. The bandages peeking out from under Jakob's sleeve do not go unnoticed.
"Are you?" he asks, equal measures curious and wary.
Bren--or Jakob, for now--ducks his head and lifts his shoulders in a shrug that betrays a little discomfort. Intentionally so. A man who doesn't seem at least somewhat rattled by what he's experienced tonight would be far more suspicious. It isn't even false, really. He has a lot of reasons to be on edge.
"Ja. You could have slit my throat, but instead you are offering to split a room with me." Glancing up sidelong, a corner of his mouth lifts in a tight, humorless half smile. "One is far more preferable than the other. If I can help you on your way in return, I will."
"You could have slit mine." Maybe the chance was slim, but it was still possible the moment Jakob knew he was awake. Or perhaps before. "So we're working towards even."
Asra hasn't killed Jakob, and out of the bargain Jakob has scavenged coin, components, and at least one book from the volstruckers, among whatever else he might have taken. Asra wasn't looking, too caught up in his own looting to care. He nods in the general direction they've been traveling.
"Let's keep going." They have good reason to get as far from the charred bodies as they can before daylight.
They keep going, and until the sun touches the horizon, there is little conversation between them. Even after, discussions are short, almost casual. Just after sunrise, they take a short rest, but the scene they've left behind them as much as the nearness of the city compels them to push on. They keep to the edge of the road, and the few riders and occasional cart that passes by doesn't pay them any mind.
Just past midday, they pass the first buildings, outlying storehouses, then the mines themselves. These areas are busier, but so are the folk they encounter, too occupied by their own business to spare them more than a passing glance.
Druvenlode isn't a pretty city. The terrain is rocky, so greenery is sparse. Everything is built close together of the same gray slate that makes up the cliffs. Smoke rises over the rooftops. The largest buildings aren't temples, but casinos. The streets are all packed dirt, and the air itself is dusty. But it is a bustling place full of sound, energy, life. Two dirty travelers finding the cheapest bathhouse in town and paying a silver each for a bath hardly bears notice.
"The rest can be cleaned," Bren tells the attendant who will be taking their clothing to be laundered, "but the coat is fine." Understandably, she gives him a skeptical look. The coat is a fucking mess. But she doesn't challenge it, and Bren gets on his way to the antechamber where he'll hurriedly strip down and store his things.
As they near the city, Asra pulls his hood up again. Even with his head down, anyone who cares to look might notice that he is paying attention to everything, gaze darting here and there, marking anything useful.
The air in the baths is humid and fragrant and a far cry from what they left behind in the woods. He strips out of his clothes so that they can be cleaned, everything, and takes a towel that smells clean but is somewhat rough from multiple washings. That it is clean is all that matters. For mow, he wraps it around his waist for some sense of modesty, even if he plans on being rid of it shortly.
From the antechamber, there's a large pool that looks like it could comfortably fit three or four people. He sinks down, stiff, so that he can slide his legs in first and sit on the edge. It isn't scalding, but he takes a moment to get used to the temperature. Or perhaps just to sit somewhere that feels, at least for now, safe. He glances up when he hears Jakob.
Asra's pale body is well-built, clearly honed by some martial training. There are places on his body that were covered by clothes that bear a faint stain from the blood soaking through thinner layers. But the stains are, perhaps, the least eye-catching marks on him.
There are several distinct scars that are too precise to have been inflicted in a fight, the lines too straight and careful. Some are smaller and at odd angles, like there was a target in mind; others are long in a grim way that suggests a more grievous injury. Or surgery. There are others yet, more haphazard, that suggest he's seen melee combat at some point in his life.
Bren has never been especially self-conscious, but he steels himself against that very feeling as he strips in the antechamber now. Since his escape, he hasn't had many chances to bathe, and certainly not in front of others. He doesn't look like he used to, and he is still unused to how his body has changed. Dressed in his ill-fitting clothes, he appeared lean. But without them, it's clear that he's not merely slim, nor even the sort of gauntly thin that would indicate he's missed a few meals, but plainly emaciated. He is lanky and angular, and his skin hugs his bones unsettlingly tight. What muscle remains is wiry, only apparent due to an unhealthy lack of fat. He hasn't had the chance to eat well since his escape, either.
Eleven years ago, he was young and strong. But in that time he has grown older, been fed less, barely stepped foot outside his stone cell. What youthful strength and beauty he once possessed has wasted away.
This is to say nothing of his arms, which he cradles protectively close to his body as he enters the bathing chamber, a towel held modestly in front of him. He gets his first good look at Asra then as well, but after a momentary glance, politely averts his eyes. Still, a moment was enough. He recalls a perfect snapshot of a sleekly toned body, pale skin interrupted by the sort of exacting scarring that Bren knows from experience to be left by a scalpel's methodical incision, some sickeningly long. There are other marks on Asra's body as well, but if anything could convince him that perhaps there are commonalities to be found between them, it is those distinctly surgical scars.
Bren wastes no time testing the water. Leaving his towel by the side of the pool, he steps into the bath and sinks down with a sharp hiss of breath, submerging himself to the shoulders, then ducking under completely. When he emerges, he pushes his wet hair back from his face, raggedly long and now noticeably redder than it was beneath a layer of dust and dirt.
Asra looks at Jakob as the other man joins him, for the first time getting a sense of how he looks beneath his clothes. It is not what he imagined, the pitiful skin and bones of a man who has not been well-fed or cared for in some time. There is a flicker across his face, the shadow of a frown. What circumstances led to this--?
He sees the scars on Jakob's arms, even though the man quickly disappears beneath the water. They are methodical, too familiar in their precision, and despite the humid heat of the room, he feels an unpleasant chill slither down his back. To banish it, he leaves his towel behind and slips into the water, following Jakob's example as he ducks beneath. Asra scrubs his fingers along his scalp, attempting to dislodge road dirt and anything else that might be there.
He resurfaces slowly, pushing his dark hair back to keep it out of his face. He leans down again to rub his fingers over his cheeks and brow, to rub them together beneath the water in hopes of removing the last traces of blood. He cannot keep seeing it. He will remember it.
Thankfully he doesn't feel Asra's eyes on him for long. Sinking beneath the water helps with that, and he glimpses Asra doing the same out of the corner of his eye. From a basket at the pool's edge Bren retrieves the plain soap provided and begins a thorough scrub-down, narrowly avoiding tearing up at how good the warm water feels, and how getting clean almost makes him feel like a person again. Weeping over a bath in front of his new companion wouldn't make for a favorable impression.
Instead, when he can trust his voice again, he murmurs, "This was a good idea."
He is currently working real honest-to-gods shampoo through his hair, a privilege he hasn't had in years. Finally he chances a more direct glance up, and happens to catch Asra's eye. He would guess that he was probably looking at his arms. Though he's tried to hide them from view as much as possible, he wonders if Asra is making connections the same way he had.
"Between this and the promise of a meal and a bed at an inn tonight, I will feel very spoiled."
That is somewhat understating it. He hasn't slept in a proper bed in more than a decade.
Asra finds something in the basket to wash himself with, absently lathering up the soap so that he can rub it over his skin. He catches Jakob's gaze when the other man looks at him.
"Has it been a long time?" he asks, uncertain if that is the right question but it's the one that escapes first. He gives Jakob a moment to consider his answer, disappearing beneath the water again to rinse himself. He isn't finished by far - he wants to linger here as long as they can.
The pattern of the scars flits through his mind - they're the broken, unfinished pattern. He's seen the full version before, geometric lines in black ink. He thinks of the volstruckers and looks at Jakob again. He clearly isn't one, or if he is, he takes his assignment very seriously.
Having brought the subject up himself, Bren isn't offended or put off by the question, but takes the time granted to consider just how he wants to word his answer. "Ja," he decides. "I have been...down on my luck these last few years." His voice lowers to a softer murmur, yet still seems to echo off the stone walls of the small, mostly empty chamber. "I know it is probably obvious. But that is why I could not ignore your camp when I saw it."
He too ducks down to rinse out his hair after that, but looks back to Asra again when he surfaces. Now that he's crossed the hurdle of actually getting into the bath, he also isn't in any hurry to leave yet. He's content in the water with his body mostly submerged.
At last, he thinks it is time to risk a little more vulnerability for a little more information. They have already revealed something significant by stripping down to bare, scarred skin, bodies that show what they have survived in a variety of ways.
"Those people," Bren says carefully, the intensity of his blue eyes filled with wary caution, "you were not with them voluntarily, were you?"
The word voluntarily complicates things more than it should. Asra looks off at nothing, absently running more shampoo through his hair.
"I did not try to leave before last night," he begins, trying to piece together fractured memories and visions. He doesn't think he did, anyway. "But I had no in interest in what they wanted me for."
He doesn't care about the volstruckers' quarry, but his interest wasn't relevant or necessary for the work. Only his compliance. Asra bends back this time to rinse his hair, wanting to keep his head above water. It puts some of the scars on his stomach and chest on full display; he doesn't seem to think about it and finishes cleaning his hair before standing straight again.
After a moment, Bren nods. Again, he doesn't think this is a lie. Asra is unqiue. Though he still knows little about him, and he can't help the sense that there is an odd kinship. Bren doesn't trust him, and he remains wary, but not for the reasons he'd initially feared. He doesn't think Asra is hunting him. Or if he was, he doesn't think he is any longer.
"What did they want you for?" he chances asking, quiet and attentive. He lets himself look now, taking in the healthy, trained shape of Asra's body in contrast to the scars that tell a grim story written clearly on his skin. He himself has sunk into the water to the neck. His freshly washed hair floats around him on its surface, longer and redder than he's seen it since he was made to cut it half a lifetime ago.
"I thought that was clear," he says as he stands straight again, pushing his fingers through his hair to make sure it's rinsed clean. He looks at Jakob, his dark eyes reflecting some of the low light. "I'm good at killing people."
Whatever else they wanted him for, whatever else they thought they might use him for, that has been an interest from the start. His mindless prowess, his connection to--something. Gods, it feels like walking out of the dark and into bright light. He can't see what's behind him anymore, but he knows that it's there.
"Like a dog on a leash." The way he says it makes it sound like he's parroting someone else - his accent changes slightly, mimicking as best he can another voice.
Bren's lips are dry and cracked, and they sting when he licks them nervously. "Ja," he says, "that was pretty clear." But that muddies the water more, if anything. Volstrucker are also good at killing people. They are certainly capable of hunting and killing him. Why involve a man who is not one of them? Especially if there is a chance he might turn on his...captors? Collaborators?
Even if he asked these questions, he gets the sense that Asra may not be able to answer them.
A dog on a leash. Those certainly aren't Trent's words. Then whose?
"To me, it seems like that is what they wanted you to be rather than what you are." No tame dog chooses freedom and self-determination over unquestioning loyalty.
"Maybe so. It felt right, for a time." Even as he says it, Asra doubts. He doesn't think it was ever truly right, but then perhaps there was no other option. He absently traces a faint scar across his neck, vaguely remembering the blade that put it there.
"Does it matter now? They do not have me any longer."
For how long? Asra rubs his face and leaves his hands there for a moment, trying to quell the barrage of thoughts that come all at once. Will they hunt him and bring him back? Will they know he's gone? And beneath it all the flash of a vision: Jakob's beautiful red hair floating in the water, with Asra's pale fingers curled tight in it to hold him under. It's that last thought that sends a shudder of anticipation down his back and makes his stomach turn all at once. Gods, who was he?
Asra slowly drops his hands, looking more tired than he did when they arrived.
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He takes whatever other spell books and pouches he can find, slipping them into the pack he'd been using as his own. Asra considers the bodies at the suggestion they burn them and he nods. That is the better decision, it will mask the slaughter for what it is, at least to untrained eyes. This man says we, and it makes Asra wonder if they are to be accomplices in this.
When he is certain there is nothing of value left, save the other pendants (he only needs one, after all), he murmurs the arcane word to cast a firebolt: first into the dying fire to make it flare to life, then again at one of the bodies.
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"Druvenlode, then," he says simply, gruffly, when all three bodies are burning. He turns away. He didn't kill them, but he can't watch. "A day south. It is a decently sized mining city. There are several casinos and gambling houses, so outsiders are not uncommon."
This man is clearly dangerous. There is a reason he reacted so quickly to the mention of Rexxentrum. He doesn't know his connection to the volstrucker, to Ikithon. But that is precisely why he must take this risk. He has to find out. Hunching his shoulders and slipping his hands into his pockets, Bren glances at the elf again sidelong. It is foolish to make this offer even tacitly, but he does. "That is where I am going."
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"Then that is where I will go."
Before they get far from the campsite, Asra attempts to use prestidigitation to get the blood off of his hands. His clothes are dark enough that the stains are difficult to discern. He also pulls his cowl hood up, hiding his pointed ears. Whether or not elves are common doesn't matter. He doesn't need to draw further attention to himself when it's clear that they both wish to go unnoticed. He is a quiet enough companion as they walk, either lost in thought or simply content not to break the silence.
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Still, it is hard to be sure. The light is strange, and the elf's hood is pulled up, and Bren's memory was not so reliable, while he was in Vergesson. Apparently it wasn't so reliable before then either, he reminds himself bitterly. He has forgotten much, and of what he does remember from the last eleven years, it is hard to know what is real. But the more glances he steals, the more he thinks he has seen this man before. In Vergesson--it must have been. If it was before that, he would recall it better.
Was he also abandoned in that place by Trent Ikithon, a failure meant to be forgotten? Is he a fugitive, too?
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As the silence builds between them, Asra becomes aware that the man he is traveling with is looking at him. Not staring, more cautious than that. Sneaking glances. Does he know something? Recognize something? It's night, they are unlikely to run into others. Asra pushes his hood back in what seems like an absent gesture, revealing himself again. His pale skin reflects the tint of the moon and there are a few flecks of blood on his neck that he has not cleaned away. He pulls his long hair back, securing it in a knot at the back of his head for now. He dislikes having it hanging loose, all he can think is that it would be too easy to grab or get caught somewhere.
"Is there somewhere I can bathe in this place we're going?" he asks at last. Maybe that would help his state of mind.
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At least he thinks he does.
"I have only been there in passing before, but I imagine you will have your pick of bathhouses with the coin we have now," he answers, taking the excuse of conversation to look more openly at his strange, still lightly blood-splattered, new companion. "I will be finding a cheap inn, myself."
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"Let me stay with you." It's worse than a question: it's a plea. The act of asking leaves him exposed and the warning crawls up his back. He does not need companionship. But you want it, a softer voice whispers. One that is right in ways he doesn't want to admit. "A cheap inn is more so splitting it."
Maybe that isn't reason enough, but it is reasonable. The coin both of them have walked away with will go further if they share that expense, small though it is. This man looks at him with recognition and Asra wants to know why. He must know. And he doesn't think it is a discussion that can or would happen in a public bath.
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Why was he at Vergesson? He needs to know.
"Okay," Bren agrees quietly, after a beat or two of silent thought. "You are clearly far from home. I have no particular destination, but you are welcome to remain with me until you decide where you want to go." Then, a careful probe: "I will need something to call you, though."
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"Asra," he answers. "That is my name."
It's an affirmation as much as an answer. He will take back who he is, and this is the first step. Well... perhaps murdering the volstruckers was the first step. But even that felt in service to the dark urges inside him. He cannot undo it now.
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"Jakob VΓΆlkner," he lies smoothly, and offers his hand. Like the rest of him, it's dirty, and also flecked with blood from divesting the volstrucker of their valuables. Dingy bandages loop around his thumb and disappear up the sleeve of his tattered coat. "I will not pretend to know what has happened to you, Asra, but I am grateful that you did not mind my snooping."
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"Are you?" he asks, equal measures curious and wary.
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"Ja. You could have slit my throat, but instead you are offering to split a room with me." Glancing up sidelong, a corner of his mouth lifts in a tight, humorless half smile. "One is far more preferable than the other. If I can help you on your way in return, I will."
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Asra hasn't killed Jakob, and out of the bargain Jakob has scavenged coin, components, and at least one book from the volstruckers, among whatever else he might have taken. Asra wasn't looking, too caught up in his own looting to care. He nods in the general direction they've been traveling.
"Let's keep going." They have good reason to get as far from the charred bodies as they can before daylight.
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Just past midday, they pass the first buildings, outlying storehouses, then the mines themselves. These areas are busier, but so are the folk they encounter, too occupied by their own business to spare them more than a passing glance.
Druvenlode isn't a pretty city. The terrain is rocky, so greenery is sparse. Everything is built close together of the same gray slate that makes up the cliffs. Smoke rises over the rooftops. The largest buildings aren't temples, but casinos. The streets are all packed dirt, and the air itself is dusty. But it is a bustling place full of sound, energy, life. Two dirty travelers finding the cheapest bathhouse in town and paying a silver each for a bath hardly bears notice.
"The rest can be cleaned," Bren tells the attendant who will be taking their clothing to be laundered, "but the coat is fine." Understandably, she gives him a skeptical look. The coat is a fucking mess. But she doesn't challenge it, and Bren gets on his way to the antechamber where he'll hurriedly strip down and store his things.
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The air in the baths is humid and fragrant and a far cry from what they left behind in the woods. He strips out of his clothes so that they can be cleaned, everything, and takes a towel that smells clean but is somewhat rough from multiple washings. That it is clean is all that matters. For mow, he wraps it around his waist for some sense of modesty, even if he plans on being rid of it shortly.
From the antechamber, there's a large pool that looks like it could comfortably fit three or four people. He sinks down, stiff, so that he can slide his legs in first and sit on the edge. It isn't scalding, but he takes a moment to get used to the temperature. Or perhaps just to sit somewhere that feels, at least for now, safe. He glances up when he hears Jakob.
Asra's pale body is well-built, clearly honed by some martial training. There are places on his body that were covered by clothes that bear a faint stain from the blood soaking through thinner layers. But the stains are, perhaps, the least eye-catching marks on him.
There are several distinct scars that are too precise to have been inflicted in a fight, the lines too straight and careful. Some are smaller and at odd angles, like there was a target in mind; others are long in a grim way that suggests a more grievous injury. Or surgery. There are others yet, more haphazard, that suggest he's seen melee combat at some point in his life.
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Eleven years ago, he was young and strong. But in that time he has grown older, been fed less, barely stepped foot outside his stone cell. What youthful strength and beauty he once possessed has wasted away.
This is to say nothing of his arms, which he cradles protectively close to his body as he enters the bathing chamber, a towel held modestly in front of him. He gets his first good look at Asra then as well, but after a momentary glance, politely averts his eyes. Still, a moment was enough. He recalls a perfect snapshot of a sleekly toned body, pale skin interrupted by the sort of exacting scarring that Bren knows from experience to be left by a scalpel's methodical incision, some sickeningly long. There are other marks on Asra's body as well, but if anything could convince him that perhaps there are commonalities to be found between them, it is those distinctly surgical scars.
Bren wastes no time testing the water. Leaving his towel by the side of the pool, he steps into the bath and sinks down with a sharp hiss of breath, submerging himself to the shoulders, then ducking under completely. When he emerges, he pushes his wet hair back from his face, raggedly long and now noticeably redder than it was beneath a layer of dust and dirt.
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He sees the scars on Jakob's arms, even though the man quickly disappears beneath the water. They are methodical, too familiar in their precision, and despite the humid heat of the room, he feels an unpleasant chill slither down his back. To banish it, he leaves his towel behind and slips into the water, following Jakob's example as he ducks beneath. Asra scrubs his fingers along his scalp, attempting to dislodge road dirt and anything else that might be there.
He resurfaces slowly, pushing his dark hair back to keep it out of his face. He leans down again to rub his fingers over his cheeks and brow, to rub them together beneath the water in hopes of removing the last traces of blood. He cannot keep seeing it. He will remember it.
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Instead, when he can trust his voice again, he murmurs, "This was a good idea."
He is currently working real honest-to-gods shampoo through his hair, a privilege he hasn't had in years. Finally he chances a more direct glance up, and happens to catch Asra's eye. He would guess that he was probably looking at his arms. Though he's tried to hide them from view as much as possible, he wonders if Asra is making connections the same way he had.
"Between this and the promise of a meal and a bed at an inn tonight, I will feel very spoiled."
That is somewhat understating it. He hasn't slept in a proper bed in more than a decade.
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"Has it been a long time?" he asks, uncertain if that is the right question but it's the one that escapes first. He gives Jakob a moment to consider his answer, disappearing beneath the water again to rinse himself. He isn't finished by far - he wants to linger here as long as they can.
The pattern of the scars flits through his mind - they're the broken, unfinished pattern. He's seen the full version before, geometric lines in black ink. He thinks of the volstruckers and looks at Jakob again. He clearly isn't one, or if he is, he takes his assignment very seriously.
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He too ducks down to rinse out his hair after that, but looks back to Asra again when he surfaces. Now that he's crossed the hurdle of actually getting into the bath, he also isn't in any hurry to leave yet. He's content in the water with his body mostly submerged.
At last, he thinks it is time to risk a little more vulnerability for a little more information. They have already revealed something significant by stripping down to bare, scarred skin, bodies that show what they have survived in a variety of ways.
"Those people," Bren says carefully, the intensity of his blue eyes filled with wary caution, "you were not with them voluntarily, were you?"
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"I did not try to leave before last night," he begins, trying to piece together fractured memories and visions. He doesn't think he did, anyway. "But I had no in interest in what they wanted me for."
He doesn't care about the volstruckers' quarry, but his interest wasn't relevant or necessary for the work. Only his compliance. Asra bends back this time to rinse his hair, wanting to keep his head above water. It puts some of the scars on his stomach and chest on full display; he doesn't seem to think about it and finishes cleaning his hair before standing straight again.
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"What did they want you for?" he chances asking, quiet and attentive. He lets himself look now, taking in the healthy, trained shape of Asra's body in contrast to the scars that tell a grim story written clearly on his skin. He himself has sunk into the water to the neck. His freshly washed hair floats around him on its surface, longer and redder than he's seen it since he was made to cut it half a lifetime ago.
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Whatever else they wanted him for, whatever else they thought they might use him for, that has been an interest from the start. His mindless prowess, his connection to--something. Gods, it feels like walking out of the dark and into bright light. He can't see what's behind him anymore, but he knows that it's there.
"Like a dog on a leash." The way he says it makes it sound like he's parroting someone else - his accent changes slightly, mimicking as best he can another voice.
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Even if he asked these questions, he gets the sense that Asra may not be able to answer them.
A dog on a leash. Those certainly aren't Trent's words. Then whose?
"To me, it seems like that is what they wanted you to be rather than what you are." No tame dog chooses freedom and self-determination over unquestioning loyalty.
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"Does it matter now? They do not have me any longer."
For how long? Asra rubs his face and leaves his hands there for a moment, trying to quell the barrage of thoughts that come all at once. Will they hunt him and bring him back? Will they know he's gone? And beneath it all the flash of a vision: Jakob's beautiful red hair floating in the water, with Asra's pale fingers curled tight in it to hold him under. It's that last thought that sends a shudder of anticipation down his back and makes his stomach turn all at once. Gods, who was he?
Asra slowly drops his hands, looking more tired than he did when they arrived.
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